If I have one thing to do in a day, it weighs on me all day long. Even if it’s something enjoyable.
There will be a kernel of anxiety in my brain all day, until the event happens.
For example, the other day I had a Pilates class at 6:30pm. I was looking forward to it.
But, for some reason, everything I did the rest of the day revolved that class…in my head, anyway.
I remember thinking at 1pm: “I have 5 hours until the class.” Even though 5 hours is a long time, and plenty of time in which to get things done, it’s almost like I felt I couldn’t really get anything done until the class was over and out of the way.
Until that event or engagement takes place, I can’t truly engage in anything else.
The worst is airplane flights. If I have a flight early in the morning, I will barely sleep all night. And if I do doze off, I’ll dream about missing the flight.
And if I have a flight in the evening, I will feel seriously anxious all day, until I get to the airport.
On days where I have multiple engagements? Say, brunch with friends and then a birthday party at night? I won’t be able to do a thing all day and will feel like I just have too much going on.
I’m sure anyone with kids is reading this and thinking, “stfu!” because what I’m complaining about it so minor. I am fortunate to have been able to structure my life so it is not as stressful as it used to be (at least for now) but I know others are not able to do that. (Getting out of the cubicle helped.)
So I know, I know…I’m whining about something unimportant.
But the reason I bring this up is because I want to know if anyone else feels this way. Does having plans in the middle of the day make you feel anxious all day? Do you have a hard time really focusing and engaging in other work until the event takes place?